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Happy Thanksgiving all! Now beyond all the seriously effed up origins of this holiday (cough-genocide-cough) I really do enjoy this day every year. I guess that's in-part to the fact that living all alone leads to a lot of pasta/sandwich/ramen/odd dinners. I love home cooked food more than anything and I personally love to cook, but when there's only you, it can be hard to keep fresh ingredients around. Things go bad before I can eat them, and I loathe wasting. So in the end, I only buy certain things, in set amounts that I know I can eat before the next time I go shopping.

Anyways, I love going home for some mother-made meals! It gets even better when I realize that I can have these immense, delicious meals and not have to wash all of the dishes afterwards. I know that's probably a little selfish of me, but hey... I'm used to having a dishwasher to do those sorts of things, or a mother that did them herself until I was older. Here, I've been washing my own dishes for so long. Yes, I do realize that  I  make most of the dishes dirty myself, but sometimes when I have people over for dinner, I'd love a hand in cleaning that mess up... but I'm by my lonesome. So going home is a treat in that aspect too, I can just eat, enjoy myself, and have fun.

I'm wondering if I've outgrown the days when every time I interacted with my mother, especially on holidays and special occasions, we'd get into catastrophic style arguments. Literally, every single holiday. Oh the teenaged years. I should have learned to pick my battles. Thankfully (ah ah see what I did there?) I think I've surpassed those years and going home is a really exciting moment for me. Thanks for hanging with me Mum, I know it wasn't easy.

So now onto the good part, the people in my life that I am thankful for: my family, Kemmif, Zy, Sarah-ra-ra &Ryan, my BL (Lea Joy), Nikita, Erika, ALL of my work friends (both jobs too), Lucas, Panza, Theo, Hub & Flash,  and far too many other people to list. You guys should know I'm not good with lists. I think I have a perfect list in my head, but then I go to write it and I forget half the things, think of new ones, or downright lose my train of thought. Then I look at the list and think 'what a pathetic little list, people are going to be wondering why you even bothered, it just looks silly.'

Yeah, thanks brain. I guess journalists or writers are never satisfied with the look of our own work. We always push for perfection.


Anyways, Happy Thanksgiving everyone, I hope you have a happy, warm, and safe one. I know I'll be spending mine playing the new Wii-U with my family and boyfriend at my parents house.

Oh and happy first day off in 18 days. Yay!

November: the Month That Wasn't

Hey guys,

So I'm just sitting here wondering what ever happened to November. Of course, it comes every year, but as I get older I'm noticing that it is growing less and less important. Okay, for instance, I've been seeing obscure Christmas advertisements since September. Why is it that businesses need to saturate my days with Christmas ads? As if I don't already know that it's coming up... as if I don't know that I'll be spending far too much on presents this year. I just don't understand.

Not only are the ads under my skin, the holiday music is ALREADY playing everywhere. It's freaking November. You know the month before December? Yeah it still exists. I adore Christmas music, it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside, but after a while it really wears on my nerves. I guess I don't understand why it has to play all the time.

I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving next, sorry America. I like to take my holidays one at a time and I definitely do not like to rush anything. This world is constantly urging me onto the next thing before I've finished with the first. It's just not natural and certainly not for me. I'd rather slow down and take my time, but apparently that way of thinking has long since died out. It's unfortunate because I think people would be far less stressed out if the world just slowed down, even just a little bit.

Personally, the holidays are a very expensive time for me. Not only is there Christmas to buy for, but my anniversary with my boyfriend is three days later. So double gifts must be bought and thought of, which is the worst part for me. I can't always think of things that people would want and they usually don't give me any hints. It's just stressful, when it really shouldn't be. I miss my childhood when things were so much simpler. I want THAT holiday season back, please?

So happy November dear readers, try to enjoy it without THE holidays looming over your head. I know I'll be sitting back, eating some turkey with my family and enjoying the time we have instead of thinking about something that is a month away.

Skin

Sorry I haven't written in a while guys, I've just been feeling very... awkward. Almost as if I can't think of things to say about anything anymore. It's really bothering me, especially since writing is one of the only things that keeps me sane anymore.


Lets see... for one thing, the lines on my skin are back with a vengeance. I have a skin condition called Dermatographic urticaria, better known as Dermogaphism. That pretty much means that my skin is allergic to contact with other things. In my case, it's itching, or things that drag across my skin that creates raised lines. It is really embarrassing, especially when I'm out in public. I really just wish that they would go away. The funny thing is, this time last year, they weren't nearly as bad. It's just gross, and what's worse, it grosses out my boyfriend. As if I'm not already super self-conscious about myself, this adds to it. I don't want him to be disturbed by anything about me... so something that is beyond my control is the last thing I need. I could medicate myself, take some allergy medicine every day... but who needs that? I don't like medicines in general, much less the exorbitant costs of the damn things.

I feel terrible.

Oh, and hello winter depression... again.